Sunday, December 30, 2012

Time is Precious

Leather And Lace - Stevie Nicks - General Rock - Bella Donna by Stevie Nicks on Grooveshark

Hello All. I know I haven't made much progress on my blog, I don't have just tons of time to devote to it. Today I need to express myself a bit though, and I figure this is as good a place as any. That's what a personal blog is for, right? I lost my dad yesterday. Well, let me reword that...I found out I lost my dad yesterday. My little brother found him yesterday, I don't know for sure exactly what day he died. But I do know he was all alone, and that's really hard to swallow. I haven't seen my dad in 9, almost 10 months. In fact, March 5, 2012 was the last time I saw or spoke to my dad, and we didn't part on the greatest terms. I'll have to live with that the rest of my life. I can't really say for sure what I'm feeling or thinking right now, it's just too much at once. There's 3 feelings stirring around predominately enough for me to distinguish what they are...

  Denial, I keep thinking maybe it's not really true. Maybe he just fell down and knocked himself out, maybe my brother just thought he was dead. Maybe dad will wake up, they will keep him in the hospital a few days and he'll be fine.
 Overwhelming despair, I know he's gone and I wont ever have the chance to see or talk to him again. No matter how much I want to think it's not true, I know it is. I'm trying really hard to handle this, I don't think I'm doing a very good job. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think about anything else. I've got work piled up on me and I don't give 2 shits about it. All I care about right now is the fact my dad is gone.
 Guilt, I really wish I would've made more of an effort to talk to him the past few months. I honestly only tried to call him 2 times, and I didn't let it ring more than 4 times each time I tried. Then I just quit trying. I've been feeling bad for a long time. I just really didn't know what to say over the phone, so I sent him an email a few months back. I found out later that he never got it, he got rid of his computer. I really thought I had more time, had I know this would happen I would've kept calling. I honestly didn't think that March 5 would be the last time I would ever speak to my dad. He would've been 54 January 14, I planned on calling him that day. I am such an idiot. I'm a horrible person and I deserve to feel guilty the rest of my life.Yeah, this is all on me. I was so afraid something would happen to him, I should've been there.

  This is the most significant loss I've experienced. I'm devastated, broken I guess is the best way I can describe myself right now. I've lost a lot of my relatives in recent years. When I think about my family 10 years ago, most of those people are gone now. So really the only thing I can say for sure is that Time is Precious. Don't ever take the people you love for granted. Life is so fragile, you never know when you hug someone whether or not it will be for the last time. The song at the beginning of this post, Leather and Lace, was one of my dad's favorite songs. He loved Stevie Nicks. I guess this is helping me, writing about my feelings and all. I don't know really, I just feel pretty inconsolable right now and I don't really know how to deal with it. A small part of me wants to crack open a Loko and a pint of Brandy, because that's what my dad liked to do. Another part of me wants to find things to occupy myself with but I can't concentrate on anything except the fact that my dad is gone forever. An even bigger part of me wants to go curl up on the bed and stay there. I just really don't know what to do, I think I need some kind of guidance here on this one. I wasn't prepared for this. What do I do? How am I suppose to function? I feel paralyzed, I feel lost. I guess it will get easier with time, I just don't know how I'm suppose to go back to being normal.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Do You Love To Review New Products? You Gotta Try!

 Hey Guys! We all love getting free stuff, right? Well, that was a loaded question now that I think about it, lol.
But, I've got something I'd like to share with my fellow frugal follies! Earlier this month I signed up with Smiley360, and unlike some of the other programs I've signed up for, these guys REALLY do send you free products to try at home! When you sign up, complete your profile 100% so they can start sending you invitations to try products that you are interested in. Today, I'm excited to have successfully accepted my first "mission"! Yay! My "mission" is to try out the new Campbell's Kettle soup. I get one of the soups (flavor of my choice), a digital coupon for me, a pair of "comfy socks", and 10 $2 off coupons to hand out to friends and family! When I try the soup, I'm suppose to write a review and post a photo of myself in my "comfy socks" relaxing :) Sounds funny, I know. But I am really excited! I will be writing my review to post on the Smiley360 website, and I'm also going to post it here. This will be good practice for me, don't you think? I'd love to be able to write many informative reviews on my blog, but since I've never done it before I figure Smiley360 will benefit me tremendously :) I hope some of you will think about signing up too! Click here to check it out!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Chic Profile Birthday International Giveaway

Check out, subscribe to enter her awesome Birthday Giveaway! Contest is open internationally, and it ends in LESS THAN 24 HOURS - so head on over and enter now by clicking on the image below!

Monday, December 17, 2012

Nails by Ms. Lizard: 1-Yr Blogiversary Giveaway

 Ms. Lizard has an AWESOME giveaway to celebrate her 1 year Blogiversary! She's offering awesome prizes  like a Sephora gift card, Deborah Lipman, and more! Please click the link below to be directed to the Nails by Ms. Lizard blog, enter the giveaway, and check out the site!

 Nails by Ms. Lizard: 1-Yr Blogiversary Giveaway

I Feel Polished!: Just Because Julep Giveaway *ends 12/19*

 Only one day left to enter I Feel Polished Just Because Giveaway! 2 lucky winners each get a bottle of Julep nail polish and a pot of glitter :) Please click the link below to enter!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

*Giveaway* Dysphoria Nails: Studio M Blue Funk and Revlon Popular giveaway

 Check out Dysphoria Nails blog and enter to win a bottle of Revlon's Popular and Studio M's Blue Funk! Click the image below to be directed to the blog and enter now. Giveaway ends Jan 1.

The Nail Junkie: OFFICIAL RELEASE AND GIVEAWAY: My Holiday Polish Line

The Nail Junkie has released their new Holiday collection! 4 gorgeous colors - Poinsettia, Snowflake, Holly, and Gold Bell. One lucky winner will receive the entire line. Click the link below to be directed to The Nail Junkie blog and enter now!


Saturday, December 15, 2012

*Giveaway* Lacquered Lover's LAQA & Co Chubs and Greedy Guts Giveaway

 10 lucky winners will get LAQA & Co's Chubs and Greedy Guts polish! Open to US residents only, giveaway ends 12/20/2012. Please click the image below to be directed to Lacquered Lover's blog and enter this giveaway.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

*Giveaway* KLK and Sassy Paints present: "The Indie Polish Guide To Surviving The Mayan Apocalypse Giveaway"

Kimberly's Lacquer Korner and Sassy Paints are having a fun giveaway with prizes from A-England, Polish TBH, and Twenty Seven Polish! The giveaway ends January 1, 2013.  Follow both blogs and enter the giveaway by clicking the image below.

*Giveaway* Holly and Polish is having a giveaway!

Holly and Polish is having an AWESOME giveaway! One lucky winner will get the ENTIRE China Glaze Cirque du Soleil Worls Away Collection!!! I want this sooo bad, and I know most polish people do so click the link below to check out the Holly and Polish blog and enter now!

 Holly and Polish: A Nail Polish and Beauty Blog: China Glaze Cirque du Soleil Worlds Away Collection

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

*Giveaway* Glitter Obsession: Barielle Giveaway

Check out the Glitter Obsession blog and enter to win 1 of 2 Barielle Nail Polish 5pc sets! Click the image below to enter now . Hurry, giveaway ends 12/22!

*Giveaway* Valentine Kisses Mega Holiday Giveaway

Valentine Kisses is having a HUGE giveaway! There's a grand prize and 3 runners up. The grand prize contains items valued at over $400, wooo! Click the image below to be directed to Valentine Kisses blog and enter now. Hurry, giveaway ends December 25!

*Giveaway* Kell's DIY Nails: Kell's 12 Days of Christmas Giveaway !

 One lucky winner gets all 12 days of prizes! Nail Polish, and lots of other goodies are being offered. To see the prizes, please click here. Hurry & head over to her blog, follow, and enter now! Giveaway ends at 12am PST.

Of Life And Lacquer 6 Winner Giveaway!!!

Head over to Of Life And Lacquer, follow her blog and enter her awesome giveaway! Lot's of great prizes (OPI, China Glaze, and Jessica to name a few!) Giveaway ends in 10 days so hurry!

*Giveaway* Mandy's Polish: Birthday Giveaway!! Plus Birthday Club Fun

 3 winners will get awesome nail polish & goodies! The Spiderman Collection from OPI (mini set), China Glaze Vertical Rush, and Revlon Whimsical are just a few of the great prizes offered. Check out Mandy's Polish blog, follow her, and enter her giveaway now!

Mandy's Polish: Birthday Giveaway!! Plus Birthday Club Fun: It's my birthday, it's my birthday, it's my birthday!! 

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

*Giveaway* Hello Miss Niki: Essie Holiday Giveaway!!!

 Like Essie nail polish? Check out this great giveaway and enter to win the FULL Essie Winter 2012 Collection + more goodies. Click the link below to head over to Miss Niki's blog and enter now. Hurry, ends 12/15!

Hello Miss Niki: Essie Holiday Giveaway!!!

*Giveaway* Check out Pink & Polished: The Super Awesome 100 Follower Giveaway

 Check out Pink & Polished Super Awesome 100 Follower Giveaway! 2 lucky winners will receive loads of pretty polish. Hurry & click the link below to enter now. 
Ends 12/16

*Giveaway* Naked Without Polish: Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!

 Naked Without Polish is holding a great giveaway for her birthday! 3 winners will win nail polish and art goodies. One of those prize packs includes Julep's Maven November box! Click the link below to enter!

Naked Without Polish: Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!! 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Varnished Valkyrie: ★Christmas Giveaway★

Varnished Valkyrie: ★Christmas Giveaway★: *Throws snow at all of your faces* *Apologises for getting a chunk of ice in your eye* Christmas is almost here!  And do you guys know wh...